sorry i haven't been on here!!! I've been studing for my finals... today was boring!! im tired!!! i have been taking tests all day!!! tomorrow i still have more tests to take!!! they split our days in half like ok we have 8 class periods a day (this does not include homeroom) well 5-8 period we took those tests today!! so tomorrow we will take 1-4 period.... grrr each test takes about an hour to do!! we get out at like 2:15 but i have to stay until 3 cuz of my sisters... they dont get out early!!!so after tomorrow i go back tuesday for an hour to get my report card then hello summer!!! im ganna b babysitting and working at the carwash and that all this summer!!!oh my mom and stepdad found a car for me... i guess my stepdad got over his big fit of your not driving the car and im not buying u a car thing!!! lol!! he always gets over things.... so yea ill be driving that w/a parent or an adult my parents approve of... i havent seen the car yet but dad told me its nice but not new... you know like its oldish but not a Piece O Shit car!!! lol!!! They love me tooooo much to give me a pos.... ^ pos means that! just for those that dont know that!!lol... so yea oh the guy i like well he is dating a girl im sorta friends with.... yea im slightly jealous but you know what? i have so many guy friends who love me and i dont need to call someone my boyfriend when i got my guys who are always there for me!!! tee hee ok at lunch i was sitting of course wit the guys... so we have a kinda crowded table... we managed to squeeze 14 pplz into a small circular table!!!!! the guy i like (lets call him peter) peter well he sat next to me and my friend (lets call him bob) bob sat on the other side of me... bob is really ummm sexual... like he's past perverted... he will randomly grab your boob or feel up ur thigh.... yea its scary but he's my buddy and he don't do that to me cuz i knocked him out last time he grabbed my boob... since then he only grabs my knee cuz it tickles.... lol im ticklish!!! well bob was tickling my knee which made me reach down under the table and push his hand away but today he grabbed my hand... like well he just sat there holding on to it... i tried to pull away but stopped cuz every1 at our table was staring at us cuz well it looked like i was... uhhh ya know.... jerking his..... U GET THE POINT!!! well peter looks under the table and see's bob holding my hand and he notices that im trying to get my hand away in which he grabs my other hand so i can't us it!!! GRRR.... now i was trapped.... then cody (he dont care if i use his name on here...) stole my cookie!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  He stole my COOKIE!!! peter and bob let me go and by that time cody had eaten my cookie!!!  no cookie 4 me!!! waaaa whaaaaaaa waaaaa!!! but you know what im ok now.... cuz cody gave me a cupcake!!!  i so stole another cupcake tho!!!  but the guys wont let it go tho!!! on im we were all iming and they all brought it up again!!  i was still really really embarrassed!!!! but yea its all good now... bob apologized to me cuz of that... he said he never meant for it to be like that.... guess what? he LIKES me!!! he just wanted to hold my hand!!! man i feel like an ass cuz i thougt he was just messing wif me!!! i like him as a friend but..... i don't want to date him or anything.... just ugh.... he didn't take it very well on 'im' when i told him i don't like him the same way as he does me.......but at least he knows that i didnt try to get my hand away cuz i hate him or anything!! he asked me y i pulled my hand away... he got off of im after i told him y i pulled my hand away.. he said bye and all that like usual but he added this "I will 4ever and ever always love you... EVEN if you never feel the same i'll wait 4 you!" awwww  i feel bad cuz i dont feel the same.... i wonder what tomorrow will be like now.... things will definatly be strange between him and i... no1 else will know why tho....ugh y does life have to be so cruel? y does it give you joy then take it away and give you despair? y? y? y? y? Damn it!!! Life is a cruel bitch!! but we all just deal with it ...... y? y do we deal with it? y dont we change it? hmmm.... oh well i kinda have to get off of here... cuz im supposed to be studing.... well yea sooo.... bye and thanks fer reading!!!!  ♥ | | | |
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