ok one of my friends commited suicide earlier today... the funeral is on monday... im not going tho... only because i feel that if you are ganna kill yourself obviously you wouldn't want a funeral for people to see you because you killed yourself to get away from them!!! Honestly i think suicide is for wimps who can't put up with their pampered life... omg mom didnt get you that laptop so your going to kill yourself... yea thats a lame excuse but kids actually use it... honestly why kill yourself??? wtf is that point in that???? all your doing is causing more pain for everyone else and leaving people with the cost of a funeral or cremation... why do that to some one when your still 12-19? suicide is really retarded... honestly... you just have to think to yourself is this worth it??? is my life worse than that girl who's dad beats and rapes her... is my life worse than the life of those kids over in asia and iraq who are starving to death? hell no your life isn't worse than that!!!! teenagers now a days dont use their heads and it pisses me off........ f'ing kids!!!!!! Its scary thinking that the worlds future is in the hands of my generation.... my generation is seriously f'ed up!!! if any of the kids from my school ever grow up and become president or something... then the world is screwed!!!! my school is nationaly ranked in the top 5... for the most drugs.... yea.... its worse than all of the getto's in the whole state of illinois!!!!!! i dont go to parties anymore because as soon as you get there its like they just give it to you in a gift bag... every party i went too... but an hour away i go to parties and only like 2 times have i been offered drugs... i said no of course... only because i dont like the smell of cigs... so why would i want to smoke weed? its like the same thing as a cig kinda... only more of a buzz if guess... people ask me if i hate the smell of cigs then why do i go over to mike& willies... well cuz one they are my cousins... and two i mainly go over there to hang out with willie and we usually leave the house and go to his friends house... almost all of the kids hang out there... well the skaters anyway... they all smoke there too... cigs and weed... yea they all stoped smoking there for now.... ugh.... well yea... this seems like enough for now so yea... thanks for reading...