ok so yea im really bored!!! im listening to music on my laptop... lol my cousin and aunt were at my house and they love music... except heavy metal... well certain songs they like but they dont listen to it alot... well i have sum rap so i was testing my cousin to see if she knew the song and the artist... then i put on wake up hate by KoRn lol she looked at me and asked what that noise was!!! i laughed and said its heavy metal!! she said oh then she started going through my playlists and asking what all of the bands were... omg now i got her listening to hawthorne heights, mudvayne, static x, etc... lol my aunts ganna hate me for that!!! lol! oh my fav song just came on!!! Side of a bullet by Nickelback!!!! I absoulutly love this song!!!!!!! its amazing!!! lol! hmmmm.... i need to work on my science project but i dont feel like doing it.... i have until may 5th... oh well... i guess... ill start it tomorrow... i think..... lol... omg is saw this amazing quote it said "if you give an eye for an eye all you get is a blind world!" lol isnt it kool? I thought it was!! lol

isnt this a kool picture??? i think its cool looking!!! hmmm i guess im ganna go to sleep or ill just end up listening to music until i fall asleep! lol! thanks for reading and stay crazy!!!

ok so here i am on my laptop its like 9:48 at night and im in the living room watching my little sisters play the wii.... ugh they are fighting over the little pplz you create!!! lol they r fighting over who gets the one i made!!! awww.... i love my sisters lol they r too funny!!! Jozcelyn is the little princess... shes the middle child shes 7 going on 8 in august... she is a lil playa!! all these lil boys are calling the house for her! Then theres alex the baby of the family! shes 5. she has severe adhd and i think she has autism but mom hasnt finished filling out the papers 4 the doctor so he can finaly decide if she has it or not... lol i know i shouldnt have favorites but alex is my favorite!!! ok she cant say all of her words right... well we were watching transformers and she calls it transboners!!! it used to be without the trans on it!!! ok we were at a resturant and alex asked the waitress: "You like boners?" omg the woman blushed and said "excuse me?" i had to tell her thats how she says transformers... ok then we have andrew... hes my stepdads son from his 1st marriage... andrew is 8... well when alex said transboners he told her "Alex its not TRANSBONERS its TRANSFORIGNERS!!" omg i laughed so hard i thought i was either going to burst open all of my organs or pee my pants!!!! luckily neither of those happened!!!!! lol oh i love my siblings even tho we fight alot... oh i have 2 half sisters that i rarely see. they are from my real dad... they live in indiana with their mom... they are i think 9 and 6? im not sure i dont see them alot altho i wished i did... i cant wait to get my license cuz im ganna drive to indiana and visit them!!! oh get this sh*t my real dad jim... well he recently got married... so i have a stepmom and 2 stepbrothers i havent met!!!! i wasnt even invited to the wedding!!! what the hell right?!?!?!?!My gma judy (jims mom) is my only connection of getting info about that side of my family!!! ugh... oh ok i was hanging out with my friends mack and cody and macks bf... mike came over and mike was talking about going in somewhere and that he was scared for life due to the sightes he say... i said " oh u went to my family reunion?" we all laughed!! my family is screwed up but so is everyone elses!!! if u say ur family is normal then i feel bad 4 u!!! thats just a coverup 4 a severly messed up family!!! lol no family is normal but in a sence they are cuz all of us are messed up so our family's are normal i guess.... hmmm a very complicated thought right?? wow i have horrible spelling but i dont care anymore!!! lol... ugh what else should i write about??? hmmm i dont know....
OH ok ill tell you about my new drivers permit!!! Its taken my mom a week to gain confidence to go back out driving with me!!! my stepdad wont go with me due to a pre driving i had with him before m permit... ok mom took me out to a church parking lot... well i was doing good backing out of a parking space when i went to push the brake i stepped on the gas... we almost hit the church... mom was freaking out... mom was like what would you have done if u hit the church i said " we'll tell them god made us do it!!" she said " your a sinner!! your going to hell!" i agreed and we both laughed... she should have seen dad's face!!! i was parking the van 4 him one night cuz we were getting something out of the machine shed so i got to drive the van back out to the house (we were in our driveway anyways!!!)well i went to push the brake pushed the gas and almost ran out into the highway!!!! lol!! he freaked out!!!! it was funny to me!!!we stopped in time and i got out!!!! lol oh my oh my itll take me about 4 hours of driving in a parkign lot b4 i take on the actual rode!!!!!!! i love you all that much lol!!! tee hee!!!!
School was ok for today... oh i talked to that senior guy today!!!! he's alot cooler than i thought he was!! he invited me to sit at his table... oh la la!!!! lol... the rest of the people at his table are boring!!! football this... blah blah blah... basketball that.... blah BLAH BLAHHH... uhhh sports sports SPORTS!!!! i dont like sports too much!!! they r kinda pointless if ya ask me! but thats just me i guess.... oh well... well yea stay crazy and thanks 4 reading!!!!!!

ok im losing my grasp on life! i've started withdrawling from everyone! i spend most of my time in my room, drawing, listening to music, writing lyrics, singing my lyrics, playing video games, reading, playing on the internet, and homework... at school my "friends" rarely talk to me anymore... i've kinda started getting more mature i guess... im still really random and weird like during lunch i will make a random noise such as Ba-caw!!! lol but yea i've gained an intrest in anime... i just faded away from my old ways... i've made some new friends but its still weird ya know? i guess the rumor about high school is true! "you change when you get to highschool." sooo many ppl told me that but i didnt listen to them... oh i dont think i wrote this but i learned the soulja boi dance and the cupid shuffle... my gma bev watches ellen degenerous and well soulja boi was on there and my gma askes every1 if they know the dance... so i cant wait till sunday when we go visit her so i can show her it!!!! she lives about 2 hours away so we go almost every weekend to see her!!!! my gma is sooo much fun!! How many 56 year olds do you know that call their daughters whores and bitches? lol my gma called my mom and my 3 aunts that when they were laughing at my gma's makeup... she shakes alot due to her parkenzies... not sure on the spelling but u get it!! it makes her shake ALOT AND ALL OVER!! i say shes ganna pimp slap someone!!!! lol she laughs at me... ugh.... ya kno... things are better when you get to start them over new... except those life long projects... those are the best... i guess what im saying is that i wish i could start over before i get much older... not like death and life start over but like a new school start over. understand? if not leave a comment!!! lol please!.!.! well i dont have much to say for now.... thanks for reading!! stay crazy!! oh ive started writing my story!!!! i've got to write some of it for you guys!!!! ill try to remember to write it!!! lol! bye bye 4 now!!!

Ok i got into a fight recently... not the kind with punching and all of that but like with words... i guess... well first off i have a black sister(im white). well in yearbook this a**hole comes over to me and my friend courtney. well courtney is dating a black guy named d... um i forget how to spell his name... well anyways this guy comes over saying how you shouldnt have interracial relationships, how blacks are skummy, nasty, low lifes, unpure, and all of this other crap... so i said "Dude you really need to shut the hell up because i have a black sister and what your saying offends me." Know what he says to me?? "well i have black relatives in my family tree... they are still hanging there." then he laughs!!!!!
Now im pissed!!!!!! courtney looked at me and knew that i was ganna explode and that exactly what i did... i yelled at him "You know what you racist B**terd... no one cares what you say cuz your a peice of s**t anyways... and black guys are nasty? Um have you ever heard of showers? I can smell your b.o. from 9 miles away! you have no room to be talking! and first of all dont use the bible to justify your rasicm... uhh have you ever seen the people from jerusalum? heres a clue.. THEY ARE NOT WHITE!!!! jesus was not white... and by the way your not pure either due to the fact that your not 'white'... technicaly we are the color of a saltine cracker!!" then he interupts and goes on about how blacks are on that food stamp process thing... umm i hate to break it to him but more white males are on that process that black people all together! yea so wtf ever!!! God rasict a**holes really piss me off because they think they are always right!!! ummm NO YOUR NOT!!!no one is aways right... sure we all have different opinions on things but still when someone tells you they dont want to hear your opinion shut up!!! Now if you dont like my opinion well you dont have to read this!! you chose to read this you can stop reading this anytime you want!!! well now that ive vented thanks for reading this!!!! stay crazy!!!

Ugh... ok my friend *kara is dating my friend *ken... and my friend *adam doesnt like ken... well adam thinks ken is only dating kara to get in her pants... well ken says thats not true...... well im friends with all of them and im always being put in the middle... now kara is mainly innocent in this except that well she wants to have sex b4 she gets out of highschool... well this stired up stuff with adam... well adam is calling ken a cheater and is turning every1 against them... well ken calls adam gay... or queer kid... so yea then i have to listen to ken complain that adam is calling him a jerk and all of this when he does the same thing!!!! well today i went off on all of them!!!!!! i went off on ken 4 talking sh*t when he complains about adam doing it... i yelled at adam 4 the same thing... i yelled at these 2 other girls cuz they r trying to break up ken and kara. well then i told kara she needs to ignore everything 4 a while... she didnt really do anythhing... ken doesnt kno that kara wants to have sex yet!!! so yea... now i have about 5 or 6 people mad at me... honestly i think that ken and kara relationship is ok... if it works it works... but if kara wasnt involved in the relationship then ken would b on his own dealing with everything... if kara and ken werent dating... things would b better... but kara seems soo happy now... ugh... ive been withdrawling from the world... lately i seem to have an obsession with skulls, music, internet, and Zelda. I barely talk to anyone anymore.... this one guy has noticed... i have a crush on him but i dont think he likes me back but today he was the only one there for me when i broke down... i just couldnt take anymore of the pplz sh*t... *peter was the one who came and grabbed my arm and took me to another table in lunch cuz he saw how mad i was at ken... i probably would have slugged him!!! It just seems like i can tell peter everything... so a horrible day turned out pretty good... i have a date with peter!!!! I cant wait!!! we r ganna go to the movies... we r ganna see prom night... i hope its good... i heard it was pretty scary... hmmmmm... well ill write more tomorrow so thanks 4 reading this!!!!