yea i havent been on here in like a long time!!!! WOW!!!! lol.... so yea ummmm oh bob and i are kinda talking a lil... thats only when like we run into each other... he'll say hi then like leave... i hate that he won't talk to me!!!!! Sure he's super perverted but he's that one friend i trust!!!! like normally i dont tell my secrets to any1... except for him... i tell him everything!!!!! i guess cuz of that he felt i liked him too.... oh what to do what to do?!?!?!?! i guess he's depressed... im not that special..... y b depressed over me??? im not like hot!!! im not all that pretty anyways... ugh.... i guess i could learn to like him but that would b dishonest to him and me.... but maybe if i gave it a chance i would end up liking him.... or he wont like me anymore!!!!!! hmmmmmm........ good ideas but i dont know what to do..... someone PLEASE PLEASE give me sum advice!!!!!!!! plz plz plz!!!!!

Happy Mom day to every mom out there!!! Ok so today i tried my hardest to get along with my stepdad just so my mom didn't have to hear it but obviously my stepdad didn't get that memo. EVERY little thing i did he yelled at me for!!! Ok this morning i was in my room lying on my bed reading a book before i actually got out of bed. I do this normaly like... ill wake up at 6 and wont get up until 6:30. ok well my stepdad was all like wake up... and i was like i am awake... i laughed and started to get out of bed... well he kept opening the door telling my to get out of bed... ummm im clearly standing in the middle of my room how is that not out of bed?? well then i was grabbing the present i had for my mom and he opens the door again and starts yelling at me! "Get the F***k out of here." i sighed mainly cuz i didn't want any fights and he smacked me upside the head!!! So my mom yelled at him and they got into fight #1. Then we went to go see my Gma bev. well mom went into the store to get something while my stepdad , me , and my 2 lil sisters sat in the van... well my stepdad threw a candy at joz ( 1 of my sisters) and joz thought i threw it. She threw it at my and starts yelling at me! My stepdad said he did it and joz gave me a dirty look so i just smiled at her and my stepdad hit me!!!When he clearly saw her give me a dirty look!!! Did joz get hit? NO!!!! Then he goes on and yells at me and hits me again cuz i wont look at him!! Well Dumba$$ i wonder why? Maybe because you just hit me? He lectures me on respect and hits me again cuz im supposedly not listening... i can still quote him..."do u think i go around mouthin ur uncle don? No i dont thats disrespectful... blah blah blah" i wont into much more detail. well im crying cuz he has hit me 3 times super hard!! mom comes out and knows nothing and i wasn't about to tell her and start another fight. She notices me not looking at her and sees me crying... which gets them started but not as much as last time cuz we are in public... Fight number #2. Then we were coming home and we stopped to get gas. Well my stepdad got out to pump gas and starts yelling at me cuz i didn't get out to pump gas. Im like What the F***k is going on?!?!?!?! My mom and i just look at each other and my stepdad starts pumping the gas while going on about me not being able to drive the car anymore cuz i can't except responsibility... ok if he had asked me to pump gas i would have!!! So he grabbed my permit from the glove department box and ripped it up!!!!!! ok i dont think i've ever EVER cussed at my parents but i did today... i called im a stupid F***ker and an ahole... and i got out of the van and walked 3 miles home... when i got home i told my mom sorry today wasn't pleasant for you i tried my hardest not to start anything with him... im going to bed... know what she said? "oh i dont blame you... I blame him..." That got him going again... know what happended? My lil sister Alex punched him in the groin!!!! ha ha ha that was awesome!!!!!! Served him right!!!! well im ganna go so yea thanks fer reading!!!

So ok... yea i haven't been on here 4 a while... oh i planted the garden with my family yesterday night!!! we r going to have cucumbers, tomatoes, snow peas, greenbeans, squash, sweetcorn, popcorn, watermelons, lettuce, brussel sprouts (ewwww!!!!) and different types of peppers like bananas, jalpineo, bell, and so on... so yea last year we had an over abundance and we were giving away veggies to pplz... this year i get to run a lil stand!!! Fun Fun Fun!!! Im currently working on a bracelet that is going to be magneficent!!!! I've got to take a pic of it to show you guys!!! Its really pretty so far!!! Im working really hard to get all of my bracelets made for spoon river drive... Thats in august or october where everyone has stuff 4 sale and ppls from all over illinois join the route and shop... in my town we have games, garage sales, food, and all kinds of other activites!!! It's sooo much fun! Usually i would run around town with my friends... i can't wait! I have all summer to stock up. well or ill wait until next year to sell them... that way ill be able to make more. hmmmm.... oh i do my science presentation tomorrow i dont want to do it tho!!!! i hate getting up in front of ppl... like i can talk to u freely through email or chat but in person im really shy. i feel like every1 is sizing me up... like judging me for what i am and what im not!! i dont know y, i just feel like that... well until i get to know you. so yea bye bye thanks fer reading this!!!

ok this weekend i've been busy kinda... ok on saturday i went to a baby shower with my mom... it was fun!!! Altho i still don't understand why u put nuts in a bowl for everyone to eat? Mom says its a tradition of sum sort... ummm ok?! i guess... then after that we came home around 7:00 and it was still sunny out and i wanted to go to my friend macks but her mom and dad said no... then i woke up late this morning and mom was on the riding lawn mower and dad was finally tilling the garden so that left me with the push mower and the inside yard. thats the yard in the fence... then i went with my lil sisters and my step brother to my gma and gpa's house... they live next door so we walked. then i had to weed wack... then i went mushroom hunting (didnt find any but had to run 4 my LIFE cuz a coyote came after dad and i)then i went to the store smelling like gas (due to weed wacking and mowing) and covered in well as u can guess grass. then i came home ate dinner... drove the 4 wheeler around the fields behind our house.. drove the 4 wheeler across the road to my friends house cuz he just got home from his dad's house... when my step bro is at our house cody is at his dad's house... so he hopped on to the 4 wheeler and we drove around on it then i dropped him off at his house and i put the 4 wheeler up and went inside... cleaned my self up and now im tired... but im not.... hmmmm.... weird right? i want to go to sleep but i dont really.... lol... well i think im ganna check my email and probably listen to music so yea im getting off of here... thanks 4 reading and please stay crazy!!!!